On May 26, 2012, I lost my boyfriend, a man I considered to be my soulmate. This is my attempt to make sense of his loss, and how to rebuild a life I thought I would be sharing with him. It won’t always be pretty, or deep, or even coherent. So little of this process is any of those things. I will do what I try to do every day: my best to muddle through. At this point, I am not asking for any more than that.